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I didn't write immediately about the last session, and frankly I think it was just laziness. I started getting at the issues around amusement park rides, cars, and panic attacks. Again, my mother came up unexpectedly. I'm not sure what that's all about. I've spent much of the week going through several generations of photographs for a family project. Needless to say, I'm glad I've gone through all this emotional work, or it would have been brutal... finding things like a mysterious young girl who is in most of the pictures of my grandfather up until my mother would have been about ten or twelve (a sister? a cousin?). Given my suspicions of what he did to my mother (substantiated by a family pattern that continued for at least two more generations, and by my mother's issues which were almost certainly trauma related, and by the fact that my grandmother committed a major scandal in their social circles by divorcing him when my mother was thirteen or fourteen and marrying a *servant* of all people).

So... no rollercoasters yet, and I still have panic attacks in cars, but things are continuing apace.